What Happens When I Sit on a Plane for Too Long

While I was on the plane, I wrote a couple things down on my iPhone to publish here later on. Here's the ramblings I put down "on paper."


Saturday, August 4, 2012

1.5 hours prior to landing in Sydney (8am AEST)

Holy longest day of my life. I mean, I knew it was going to be long, but you can’t actually understand what a 15 hour flight means until you’ve experience it. I feel like I have clown’s feet. And I think my ears are blocked forevermore. I sure as heck am low on sleep.

The awesome part is that we time-traveled! We left Toronto at 10pm EST on Thursday and will get to Sydney at 9:30am AEST Saturday. It basically feels like we totally skipped over Friday. It is still a really long journey though.

30 minutes from landing in Sydney

I can’t believe what we’ve done. We’re crazy! We picked up and moved to Australia. It’s actually so far away. I now have the full realization of how far it is and what that means. I feel like I should apologize to my parents for what I’ve put them through. Leaving like that and going so far away.

But this is something I had to do; have to do. It’s going to be amazing, eye-opening, and almost definitely will change me in some way. So whether it’s crazy or not, I’m not going to regret a single moment. I won’t allow myself to. Because this is me, living my dream.

Today's the Day!

Yes, that's right. It's flying day. Moving day. Goodbye Canada day.

It's ridiculous to think that in less than 12 hours, I'll be taking off from the Toronto Airport. How can it be so close, and yet still not seem real?

I think the biggest thing is that I don't know what to expect. I've never been to Australia. I've never been on a 15 hour flight. I've never moved to the other side of the world. There are so many I've nevers. So how is it even possible to imagine expecting what it will be like?

Yesterday, Becca and I were talking about how we keep getting asked if we're excited or nervous. Of course, we're both, but neither of these emotions is really showing outwardly. The explanation I came up with is something like this: Excitement is a high feeling, a positive feeling, whereas nervousness has more of a negative, low feeling, more reserved. Pair these two together, and they kind of cancel each other out. We've just kind of platformed in the middle near a feeling of numbness.

So I'm not uninterested or bored with the fact that today is THE DAY. I'm terrified and ecstatic, nervous and excited, and somehow still feeling unprepared. But the one thing I know I am for sure:

I'm ready.